Josh's Life: An Endless Waltz

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 01:08:33 GMT

I am here safe, and I am having a blast!

This is all that needs to be said! *hugs* everyone have a great (and safe) Labor Day Weekend!

-Josh

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 02:25:18 GMT

I am soooo fucking excited I cannot begin to explain it, but I am sure most of you already have heard enough about it!

YAY! I get to go see Ian this weekend. 4 Days and 4 Nights! This is so great, I am so excited and I can barely contain it.

I would write longer, however I need to finish laundry and packing and a myriad of other things before I go to sleep and I need a good night rest! All of you make sure to have fun Labor Day Weekend, but don't do anything I wouldn't do! *wink*

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 05:39:13 GMT

Okay, a friend of mine is in the hospital because of major pains that may be related to a recent surgery. So I have a favor to ask of all of you....

Please pray, cast spells, cross your figures, do a little dance... Whatever it is you do, please do this for her.

FEEL BETTER HEATHER!

Thanks everyone
*hugs*
~Josh

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 05:03:08 GMT

HE WROTE BACK!

DUMB!

Hey Josh,

How are you? I'm doing great. You really don't have to feel sorry for me. The God of the Bible IS the one true God. He is always gonna be God and I am His child. He is a sovereign God--He's in charge--He's the ruler of the universe. And I'm convinced that He is well able to take care of my needs. You said that you have been saved and born again and then you said you are pagan. But those two things are in opposition to each other. So how can that be?
Did you know that for a person to be a follower of Christ, that person MUST deny himself? True faith in God results in obedience to God’s word and a willingness to give up our own selfish desires. Look at what Jesus said in this passage:
Matthew 16:24-25

24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. 25 For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.

And just about the same thing is found in Mark 8 and Luke 9. Jesus told us to deny ourselves of our own selfish desires—to give those up and to follow him and to obey him. Verse 25 is saying that if we live our lives following our own selfish desires, then we will lose our life. But if we will lose our life for Christ’s sake—if we will give up our own selfish desires and follow God’s will for our lives, then we will find, or preserve, our lives.

I'm willing to give up my own desires because I know that God has something MUCH better for me than I could possibly have apart from Him. Did you know that God is perfect and NEVER makes any mistakes? God knows everything and there is nothing that ever escapes his knowledge. God can do anything He chooses to do at any time He chooses to do so. God loves us and only wants what is best for us. So why would anyone want to go their own way and do their own thing when that is against God? Do you think your wisdom and power is greater than that of God? If not, then why wouldn't you want to submit to God and do what He says is right and live the way He wants you to live? Have a good day Josh and I hope you will email me again soon.

God bless you,

Rick

My reply, as I am now done with him...

This is where I finish our little chat. You are bordering on harassment. Listen, you call me misguided, when I think you are completely misguided yourself. We are going to have to agree that we will disagree. I know Christians that would look at you in shame for what you do. Continue to cruise the various gay personals sites that you do. Continue to try to tell others how so very right you are and how so very wrong, nasty, and vile we are. Keep up your passive aggressive need for dominance over people. Keep up your verbal bashing albeit passive to try to change people. Who knows, maybe you will change a few (and I pity them as well) or maybe better yet...you will depress one enough to actually kill themselves...rid the world of one more sinful faggot... because it is people like you that made me almost kill myself. You will not ever contact me again. Don't bother responding to this, I don't want to hear it. I didn't want to hear it nearly a year ago, I don't want to hear it now. I am done with you Rick.

And I will be reporting you to XY.com for harassment of not only myself but others. Thank you and have a great day.

-Josh

This will hopefully conclude my contact with Rick.

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 17:40:12 GMT

Okay, so I had a really really weird dream last night.

If you have seen the movie IT then you may understand my dream a bit more. It was based off from that movie. The first half of the dream was the movie... and the second part of the dream was me and some friends being hunted down, by some monsterous murderer clown. Yeah, not fun. And the worst part about it is that I had the dream all night... litterly all night. I woke up several times, around midnight, 2 am, 4 am, and 7 am.... I actually woke up one time screaming help.

Yeah, so that was weird.

That is all.

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 15:38:25 GMT

Alright...well, I am at work...

It is another day and another Monday, I am trying to just get through the day without going mad!!! Haha. The day is not going so bad at all and I don't have to do a calibration call today...

(Background information: I am in the Quality Assurance Deptartment now, so we monitor all of the gateway calls to be sure that the employees are doing their jobs properly. The Calibration calls are used to be sure all the QA Reps are grading the employees similar and how Gateway Headquarters wants us to grade.)

Anyway, my arm hurts... My coworker and I were joking about how today sucks, but we are glad we didn't have the calibration today. So, I said jokingly said I would have to kill myself if we had a calibration and my manager heard this and joking said we did. So, knowing she was joking I mimed slitting my wrist with a twix wrapper folded in half... I don't know how it happened, but the little fucker was sharp...it actually broke my skin and make me bleed a little! DAMMIT! haha, but now it just looks like a little scratch. I mean... HOW MUCH WOULD IT HAVE SUCKED IF I DIED FROM A TWIX WRAPPER! It isn't possible, but could you imagine how lame that would be.

On a less frivolous point... I am feeling very avoided and/or ignored recently. This is not just one person, or two people, or even three people. It is numerous people. So yeah, feeling avoided/ignored...this sucks. If I am not being avoided ore ignored by the (and I repeat) NUMEROUS people...then why must I be the person that always instigates conversation. Why am I the one that always makes the effort?! I am sick of it. I feel like with many people if I don't call, I will never hear from them. With that being said, I will not continue to try over and over and over again. I will not waste my time with people that show no interest in being my friend. I will not waste my time with people that are not going to put as much into a friendship as I am.

So yeah, that sounded like I am angry, really I am not. I am just over it. I am done wasting my time with people where the energy could be better focused on someone else willing to actually work at a growing friendship rather than the unwilling stagnant behavior that I am coming across more and more.

Back to work!

Fun with corpses...well she isn't REALLY a corpse....

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 04:25:19 GMT

If you have Myspace then you should go visit my page. www.myspace.com/the_endless_waltz and look at my most recent comment from Danny. It is loads of fun and can keep you occupied for hours.

Also...if she gets stuck, click and hold the left mouse button and drag...she will move with the pointer...you can even squeeze her through some of the tightest openings...then drop her and see her bounce and roll!! ...hehe...what fun!

I have had the song Everything stuck in my head for the past hour... I love that song, so many happy memories. :)

I don't want to work...blah...hah!

NIGHT!

~Josh

Bible Thumper: Revisited

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 01:06:49 GMT

How many people remember that guy that emailed me back in November....the bible thumper that I had to put into place...?

Well, if you don't remember, or you weren't around then, go ahead and go back to my entries on November 24rh and 30th....Do so now and read what we talked about before proceeding further....

I do however say things that are not very friendly towards God. If you would be offended don't read. You have been warned. If you read this anyways, I don't want to hear stupid comments or silly words thrown at me, because you were warned. Any such attempt to argue with my views or what I said will swiftly be dealt with...most likely a verbal crushing or decimation. If you don't believe me...then I will get Marsha to help out!

Post #1
Post #2

Okay so yeah...you remember him now, or are at least know of him now. Great! Moving along now...

This is the first letter I recvd from him.

Hey,

How are you? I’m doing great. I'm a gay guy and I saw your ad on XY. This is a probably a different kind of response than you are expecting. But would you be interested in talking some about what God says about homosexuality/bisexuality? I have found answers about that which have helped me a lot. Maybe you have also been looking for some answers about being the way you are. So I hope we can talk about it some. Or if you don’t want to talk about that subject, maybe we can talk about something else. Have a great day and I hope you will email me back soon.

Rick

I thought it was the same guy, but I submitted my reply right away...I am always interested in what these people have to say...hehe. It was short and sweet

And what exactly does God say about homosexuals? And why do you wish to speak to me about the subject?

-Josh

Then I got his reply back to mine...

Hey Josh,

I hope you are doing well and thanks for writing me back. I’m glad you are interested in talking about what God says about homosexuality. I'm happy to tell you what I believe about that and I hope you will respond and tell me what you think about what I said and tell me what you believe. I completely respect your right to believe whatever you want to believe, so please don't feel that I'm trying to push something on you. I know how you feel about things because I am in the same boat you are in. I know how hard it is to be gay and live in this world of people that just don't understand us. I care more than you can possibly know, so please read all of what I have to say. I will probably say some things in this email that you don't agree with. I might even say some things that seem hurtful to you. But I want to tell you the truth. God is there to help those who will trust him and obey what he says. So please don't be upset by anything I say in this email. God loves gay people as much as anyone else and we have as much opportunity to go to heaven as anyone else does, but we need to know and understand what God has to say about homosexuality. I believe that many people are failing to check out what God and the Bible say about homosexuality and they are living their lives based on their assumptions and false doctrine instead of based on what God says. And the results of that are disastrous!

God has made himself VERY real to me and the Bible is a huge part of that. God didn't actually write down the words of the Bible, but he chose some good men that he could depend on and he told them what to write down for him. God preserved his word for us in this way so we could know how to be saved and how he wants us to live. I am thoroughly convinced that the Bible is God's word regardless of what all the skeptics say. It is something that is just too great and powerful to have come from men. The Bible is the authoritative word of God and we had better listen to what God says to us. God has a lot of serious things to say in the Bible about homosexuality. But God himself has made a HUGE impression on me about what he says about homosexuality, and that just confirms to me what the Bible says about it. I am going to say some things right now that you might find upsetting, but please don’t take anything I say the wrong way. You won’t find a person anywhere who loves gay people more than I do. I care enough to tell you the truth, so please don’t be angry with me for that.

I don't act on my gay desires because I am completely SURE that God says that behavior is sinful and wicked. I know that it SEEMS right and good to act on our gay desires because that is the way we are. But there are two things we must keep in mind about this. When God made our bodies, he NEVER intended for us to function in a way in which our bodies would be joined sexually with other males. God meant only for male bodies to be joined to female bodies in that way, and only in the marriage of one man to one woman. God never at any time approves of a male joined to a male or a female joined to female in a sexual way. The second thing we need to remember is that we were born with a vile sin nature that causes us to have desires, urges, and temptations in our bodies to do sinful things. That is what makes sinful things SEEM so right to us. So that is why we need to avoid "being what we are". We have a vile sin nature that is totally contrary to God and we need to avoid acting on it. That is true of both gay and straight people. Sexual sins for straight people are just as serious as they are for gay people. If we live according to our sin nature, that will result in our destruction.

If you choose to live a gay lifestyle, you are not embracing what God wants for you, but you are embracing your depravity that was passed down to you from Adam and Eve. And that resulted from their sin in the Garden of Eden. When God originally created Adam and Eve, they were just what he wanted them to be. But their sin messed up God’s creation. The sin of Adam and Eve caused God’s creation to go in all sorts of directions that he never intended. And as a result, this world has a sin curse on it and our homosexual desires came from that sin curse. So we are NOT what God meant for us to be. We were NOT made in the perfect image of God, but were made in the fallen image of Adam, although we were indirectly in the image of God. God wants us to look at the way he created our bodies to function and realize that the vile urges in our bodies did not come from him. Jesus Christ came to die for us and shed his blood for us to save us from our sin and our sin nature. Jesus came to fix the sin problem that we inherited from Adam. His sacrifice on the cross paid the sin debt for those who will trust him as their personal Savior. But also when a person gets saved, the Spirit of God comes inside of that person to live and give that person power to overcome his sin nature and avoid acting on that sin nature. So God also wants to save us from the behavior that results from our sin nature. The Bible says that people who live a life of habitual homosexual behavior will go to hell. It also says that straight people who live a life of sexual immorality will go to hell. Jesus said that people who will not repent and turn from their sins will perish. That is a summary of what God says about homosexuality, but we can talk about this in much greater detail if you like. Again I want to ask you to please not be upset because of what I have said. People who will trust and obey God don’t have anything to worry about at all. God promises to take care of those who will trust him and obey him. And it’s great to remember that God cannot lie and he has the power to back up his promises. Maybe you are thinking that God is cruel or that a loving God would never do things this way. But the fact is that God doesn’t owe us anything. We owe him! We wouldn’t even be here without him. Every good thing we have came from God. And the bad things about our situation are a result of our own sins and the sins of humanity in general. So we should be grateful that God is so merciful and loving.

Have you ever been saved and trusted Jesus as your personal Savior and Lord Josh? I was saved a long time ago and it is the best thing I have ever done in my life! This is so important because the Bible says that people who have been saved will go to heaven and people who have NOT been saved will go to hell and suffer eternal torment. So if you haven’t been saved, I hope we can talk about that. I know that I have said a lot of negative things about this. But God does have some positive and helpful things to say to us. I will be glad to tell you more about that if you want to continue talking. Again I hope you will respond and tell me what you think about what I said and tell me what you believe. Take care Josh and I hope to hear from you again soon. :)

God bless you,

Rick

Now I knew it was him...I just needed proof...so I went back through my live journal to find the correct posts...and sure enough it was him. I didn't delay in my response this time either...having previously forgotten about him. So here is what I wrote...

Rick,

Trust me when I say that no offense was taken. Trust me also when I say you are not significant enough to have caused me internal pain of conflict with your words.

I feel pity for you. Pity for you more than most other's that blindly place their faith in God. You are pathetic, and you lead a lame existence to be deluded enough to deny what you are. I find you more pathetic than most. Most people turn to god because of their fear of death... Not you, no... You turn to God because of your fear of life. You fear being different from others and you deny your true self over and over, playing at being a martyr ...just because you are scared that you are gay.

I have been saved and born again. You already know this... or maybe you don't. If you don't then let me refresh your memory. You wrote me nearly a year ago now. I couldn't have forgot someone such as you. You seem quite proud on your soap box of hollow words and pitiful attempts to ruin yet another life with your words of divine influence. You wrote in November...right before Thanksgiving. I was polite to you then, and I believe I am being relatively polite to you now. I know you might have been hurt by what I said, but most likely not. I am sure that your skin is thick enough by now.

I don't believe in your god. I am Pagan, so I believe (like I have said before) that this is a moot argument. I await the rebuttal that I am sure to get...

-Josh

PS: Attached is a file that has our previous conversations you are in red, I in blue... Regardless of what is written there, please feel free to email me again.

And now for a health update...I am doing well and almost fully recovered...that is all.

-Josh

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 05:24:51 GMT

Don't worry about me...

I am glad you two are happy.

This post is for someone very specific and he knows who he is.

- Don't worry about me being angry. I'm not.
- Don't worry about me being hurt. This of course I am, but it is natural and I am not going to let this sort of thing stress me out... I have too much to deal with.
- Please don't feel awkward around me.
- AND MOST IMPORTANTLY: You are two of my good friends. I adore you both. Be happy and have fun.

This is all I have to say.

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 21:38:53 GMT

I will no longer read the cheesy horoscopes that come in my email any longer. I have decided that they are bad. Not only are they probably poorly written by some strange person that doesn't know virgo from picses, but they are also probably in it just to make some money.

That really isn't the reason though. The reason being, that I think that by reading a horoscope (one that is probably very fake and randomized) leads you to believe something is going to happen...you thus focus all of your energy on that particular thing and it does. I shall play no more of this sick little game.

That's all I have to say about that.

Fin.

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 19:42:02 GMT

I would really really like to leave work right now, but it is going well. The job is loads less stressful than my last...and my boss is very pleased with how I am doing. I am holding my own against people that have been doing the job for many months. HOORAH for me! Haha Gotta run!

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 23:40:40 GMT

I am taking some 'me time.'

I have no idea how long it is going to last, it may be an hour....it may be a week. During this time, I may not answer my phone. Don't take it as personally. I just don't want to talk to you at that moment...or anyone else for that matter. If there is an emergency...leave a voice mail, I will listen to them. If there is a matter of importance, or you are just saying hi...please also leave a message, I will listen to it, and when I feel like talking to someone, I will call you back.

Right now, I think this is what I want and need. You guys are my friends and I love you all to pieces, but I want some time to myself. Take care and have good days for me.

And yes, I am alright... I just want some time to myself.

If you don't know my phone number...it is...
754-368-5838

Again, leave a message...

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 22:54:12 GMT

I think....I made a mistake, sorry...

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 06:51:49 GMT

I am bored...entertain me!

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 01:54:06 GMT

Sorry I have been so lax the last couple of days with updating....if you don't like it...too bad.

So yeah, I got a new shirt, or more accurately Marsha got me a new shirt...and it is great and I am wearing it to Coli (which is prolly where we will end up on Friday).

"Hi, You'll do.."

Hehe! Good fun.

Anyway, the job is going alright...it is kicking my ass though, because I am not used to having to get up at 6:30 in the morning, but I am sure I will get used to it soon enough. At least I am home by 5:30 each and every day.

NICE!

More to update later...and HAPYY BIRTHDAY RION!

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 01:53:07 GMT

Believe it or not you can read it.

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid. Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer inwaht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas thought slpeling was ipmorantt.

All I have to say is good fun!

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 05:31:49 GMT

Tomorrow I start my new position...or rather today actually...damn I should get to bed.

At least the job is going to be easier...I don't have to talk to people anymore. All I have to do is listen to recorded calls to ensure that the technician/salesperson is doing thier job properly.

Night everyone!

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 21:41:42 GMT

1.(X)Napoleon Dynamite
2.( )Saw
3.(X)White Noise
4.( )White Oleander
5.(X)Anger Management
6.(X)50 First Dates
7.(X)Freddie vs. Jason
8.(X)Scream
9.(X)Scream 2
10.(X)Scream 3
11.(X)Scary Movie
12.(X)Scary Movie 2
13.(X)Scary Movie 3
14.(X)American Pie
15.(X)American Pie 2
16.(X)American Wedding
17.(X) Harry Potter
18.(X) Harry Potter 2
19.(X) Harry Potter 3
20.(X)Resident Evil I
21.(X)Resident Evil 2
22.(X)The Wedding Singer
23.(X)Little Black Book
24.(X)The Village
25.(X)Donnie Darko
26.(X)Lilo & Stitch
27.(X)Finding Nemo
28.( )Finding Neverland
29.(X)13 Ghosts
30.(X)Signs
31.(X)The Grinch
32.(X)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
33.(X)Butterfly Effect
35.( )Thirteen going on 30
36.(X)I, Robot
37.(X)Dodge ball
38.(X)Universal Soldier
39.(X)A Series Of Unfortunate Events
40.( )Along Came A Spider
41.(X)Deep impact
42.( )KingPin
43.(X)Never Been Kissed
44.(X)Meet The Parents
45.( ) Meet The Fockers
46.( )Eight Crazy Nights
47.(X)A Cinderella Story
48.( )The Terminal
49.(X)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
50.( )Passport to Paris
51.(X)Dumb & Dumber
52.(X)Dumb & Dumberer
53.(X)Final Destination
54.(X)Final Destination 2
55.(X)Halloween
56.(X) The Ring
57.( )The Ring 2
58.(X)Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
59.(X)Practical Magic
60.(X)Chicago
61.(X)Ghost Ship
62.(X)From Hell
63.(X)Hellboy
64.(X)Secret Window
65.(X)I Am Sam
66.( )The Whole Nine Yards
67.( )The Whole Ten Yards
68.(X)The Day After Tomorrow
69.(X)Child's Play
70.(X)Bride of Chucky
71.(X)Ten Things I Hate About You
72.(X)Just Married
73.(X)Gothika
74.(X)A Nightmare on Elm Street
75.(X)Sixteen Candles
76.(X)Bad Boys
77.(X)Bad Boys 2
78.(X)Joy Ride
79.(X)Seven (SE7EN)
80.(X)Oceans Eleven
81.( )Oceans Twelve
82.(X)Identity
83.( )Lone Star
84.(X)Bedazzled
85.(X)Predator I
86.(X)Predator II
87.(X)Independence Day
88.( )Cujo
89.(X)A Bronx Tale
90.(X)Darkness Falls
91.( )Christine
92.(X)ET
93.(X)Children of the Corn
94.(X)My Boss' Daughter
95.(X)Maid in Manhattan
96.( )Frailty
97.( )Best Bet
98.(X)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
99.(X)She's All That
100.(X)Calendar Girl
101.(X)Sideways
102.(X)Mars Attacks
103.(X) Event Horizon
104.(X)Ever After
105.(X)Forrest Gump
106.( )Big Trouble in Little China
107.(X)X-Men 1
108 (X)X-Men 2
109.(X)jeepers creepers
110.(X) Jeepers Creepers 2
111.(X)Catch Me If You Can
113.(X)Freaky Friday
114.(X)Reign of Fire
115.(X)Cruel Intentions
116.(X) Pi
117.(X)Swimfan
118.(X)Miracle
119.(X)Old School
120.( ) Ray
121.(X)The Notebook
122.(X)K-Pax
123.(X)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
124.(X)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
125.(X)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
126.(X)A Walk to Remember
127.( )Boogeyman
128.( )Hitch
129.( )Back Door Sluts 9
130.(X)South Park: Bigger, Longer and Uncut
131.(X)The Fifth Element
132.(X)Star Wars episode I
133.(X)Star Wars episode II
134.(X)Star Wars episode III
135.(X)Star wars episode IV
136.(X)Star Wars episode V
137.(X)Star Wars episode VI
138.(X)Troop Beverly Hills
139.( )Swimming with Sharks
140.( )Trainspotting
141.(X)People Under the Stairs
142.( )Blue Velvet
143.(X)Sound of Music
144.(X)Parent Trap (new version)
145.(X)The Burbs
146.(X)SLC Punk
147.(X)Meet Joe Black
148.( )Wild Girls
149.(X)Clockwork Orange
150.(X)The Order
151.(X)Spiderman
152.(X)Spiderman 2
153.( )Amelie
154.(X)Mean Girls
155.(X)Shrek
156.(X)Shrek 2
157.(X)The Incredibles
158.(X)Collateral
159.(X)The Fast & The Furious
160.(X)2 Fast 2 Furious
161.(X)Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
162.(X)Closer
163.(X)The Sixth Sense
164.(X)Artificial intelligence A.I.
165.( )Love Actually
166.( )Shutter
167.( )Ella Enchanted
168.(X)Princess diaries 1
169.(X)Princess diaries 2
170.( )Constantine
171.( )Million Dollar Baby
172.(X)Life of David Gale
173.( )25th hour
174.( )Vanilla Sky
175.(X)Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind
176.( )Boogy Nights
177.(X)Braveheart
178.( )The Anarchist Cook Book
179.( )My House In Umbria
180.(X)Double Jeopardy
181.(X)Monsters, Inc
182.(X)Elf
183.(X)Anchorman
184.(X)Thirteen
185.(X)The craft
186.(X)Requiem for a Dream
187.(X)Pirates of the Caribbean
188.( )Batman Begins
189. ( ) Wet Hot American Summer

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 20:36:12 GMT

okay, to answer everyone's questions.

Effectivie immediately my schedule at work is Mon-Fri 8:00am - 5:00pm

Yay!

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Alright so I went to dinner with the crew last night, that was fun, of course. At the dinner was Myself, Adam, Marsha, Brandon, Heather, Jason, and Evan. It was okay, all we did was go to Outback, but it was fun. Evan and I went on a rant about X-Men for a bit, good fun.

After dinner Myself, Adam, Marsha, and Brandon went to Coli. That too was fun. I saw Zieg for a little bit and danced with him for a little while. I saw Rion, but I was in a hurry somewhere and said I would find him later, which I could not find him, so... :(

All in all the night was good, I was really tired though, so I didn't get very drunk. Marsha's phone got broken by some stupid douche. Later on in the Hip Hop room Marsha accidently kicked me square in the balls...hard. It SUCKED! haha, I wasn't mad at her but I was definately not in the mood to be touched or bothered, so we started to walk out so I could sit down somewhere and a bunch of people were bothering me, I ended up litterally shoving people out of my way. I felt like I was going to throw up every where and this asshole grabs my arm and says, "What's wrong with you?" I proceed to tell him that I got kicked in the balls and to leave me alone. He must not have heard the first part because he started squeezing my arm and asked again. By now, I am frustrated I don't want some ugly fuck grabbing my arm, I feel like I am going to throw up and he won't let go. My response to the repeated question was, "Get the fuck off me asshole I am fine." He then twisted my arm a bit and told me to calm the fuck down. I told him if he didn't let go that I would call the police. Thank god to marsha, she was calm enough to repeatedly say to him that she accidently kicked me in the balls. Finally I ripped my arm from him, and marsha walked me over where I could sit down and then we left shortly after.

We went to IHOP, got some food, went to Marsha's, attempted to watch Practical Magic again, failed miserably, and went home.

Good fun.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 20:05:22 GMT

Jim, Jonathan, Chris, Heather, and Jason....

Thank you guys! For the support.

I know there were others out there who would have given me support too, had you the time to actually read the post, but alas you were too lat and the results are in.

I got the job. This is wonderful and that is all!

<3 Josh

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 18:32:08 GMT

Favourite ice cream: mint chocolate chip mhhmmmm!

Favourite place to be: With friends, good times!

Best band: Oh, I don't know, I like a lot of stuff...Lifehouse I guess...love them.

Best friend: The Crew members I have spent time with, Rion, Zieg, John Heath, Jonathan...

Best love: Yeah, they are all different, none more important than the next

Most active friend: A tie between Adam and Marsha

Most amazing person: You are all amazing in one way or another

Most kissable: heh... I have no idea... Me?!

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 14:53:28 GMT

Everyone do me a favor and cross your fingers that I get the job transfer that I would like! *smile*

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 17:48:41 GMT

I really dislike Wednesdays...

I feel forever anxious before work, like I am forgetting to do something. I cannot relax, and the day just starts off really badly. Work feels like a full day, and...ugh, that is enough whining. Anyway, I guess other than that everything is okay. Movie night again last night, it was fun. Adam couldn't make it...sick...still sick today, worse even. Very poor. Anyways, I am going to go get ready now.

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 20:20:43 GMT

I feel blah and bored.

Though I feel better than I did yesterday. Yesterday I was so tired that it was ridiculous. Anyways, a night of good sleep has definately fixed that for me. I am wanting to go out and do something, but I do NOT want to deal with the rain right now! ACK! Haha. Anyway, I am going to go shower now...just needed to share with everyone.

Later

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 20:33:16 GMT

Frustration...

Things are not always as they appear to be.

*shrug*

P.S.
I cannot wait for work to be over